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A Loud to Love	By : JoJo Category: +G through L > The Loud House Views: 15014 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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I looked up at the sky it was crystal blue like my own eyes. I looked down and jumped in fright realizing he was standing on…water? A cold stone of dread settled in the pit of my stomach as I knew where I was and what was about to happen. I’d been in this situation many times over the past few years, but each time was like a fresh wound raking across my skin. I looked up once more seeing the plane, my parents’ plane it careened towards the water smashing into it shattering like glass against the liquid surface of the ocean. I covered my eyes against the resulting explosion feeling the heat sear my skin as screams echoed around me, before going silent.
I resisted looking knowing what would be before me the moment I opened my eyes. “Lincoln.” I shook my head violently resisting the call. “Lincoln.” I knew the voice as surely as I knew my own heartbeat but still I resisted. “No I don’t want to see this again. Let me wake up please!” “Lincoln open your eyes.” This time it was my mother’s voice and like any good son I couldn’t resist her command. I opened my eyes and felt bile rise into my throat like lava from a volcano. My parents stood in front of me hideously disfigured from the crash.
My father’s face was nearly gone the flesh burned from the left side leaving his skull charred and open to the world. The clothes I’d last seen my father in were burning against his skin filling the air with the scent of burning fibers and flesh. His stomach was lacerated and his guts spilled out dripping ruby red blood into the ocean water below him. I fell to my knees feeling my stomach heave against my ribs.
My eyes moved away from the grisly sight of my father and locked onto my mother. Her body was just as bad. Where it seems Lynn’s body had been caught in the explosion of the plane it seemed Rita suffered a watery grave. Her once blonde hair was dark with algae turned a disgusting green. Her skin sagged on her body gray and sickly before dropping off into the water to be swept away by hungry schools of fish revealing porcelain bone beneath. Her eyes were gone most likely snatched from her sockets as told by the bite marks around her empty orbits. It was like the abyss was staring back at him from those empty holes.
“Lincoln you did this to us.” Said Lynn senior as the fire burned his flesh. “Your sin cost us our lives, and yet you still do nothing to repent.” I shook my head. “That’s not true I’m trying I accepted every punishment put upon me.” Rita sneered the muscles in cheeks stretching her skin horrifically. “But you’re still alive. You know what the only way to make amends is.” I looked at the two thankful the tears in my eyes distorted their horrific visages. “I can’t do that I-I-I.”I had no excuse as to why I shouldn’t end my life. If this had been before I could have made hundreds of lists as to why I shouldn’t, but I’d pushed all my reasons away.
“You’re alone and have nothing to live for you’re just a burden to everyone around you. You’ve pushed away anyone who cared about you, so why fight it?” My father said kneeling placing his skeletal hand on my shoulder. “The only people you’re punishing by staying alive are your sisters and friends.” My eyes opened. My father was right I was just making the lives of my family worse by staying alive and being like this. I might as well be dead at least then my family wouldn’t worry about me constantly. I was being selfish by staying this way.
I shot up off the couch looking around the living room as I came fully awake. I wiped my face feeling the tears I’d shed in my sleep and sighed. “This is killing me; no it’s killing my family.” I said before standing up and heading upstairs to the bathroom. As I reached the landing I looked at each room on the second floor. I hadn’t set foot in any of them since Lori left. I found my hand on the handle of Lynn and Lucy’s door turning the knob I opened the door looking into the bedroom.
I didn’t know if it was my imagination or not, but I swore I could hear the rhythmic thud of Lynn’s baseball against the wall and Lucy’s sighs. It brought a smile to my face as I proceeded to the twins’ bedroom even now I could still smell Lola’s perfume and hairspray, which when I considered that Lana had an entire zoo in here it was a miracle it didn’t smell like a barn. I proceeded to Lily’s room which had once been my room and before that it had been a linen closet. i could see the multitude of drawings and some of my old comic books hanging on the wall. I couldn’t help but smile as I remembered the day Lily had asked me to help her learn to draw.
I turned to my right opening the door to Lisa’s room seeing the numerous beakers, test tubes and petri dishes lined across the table all covered in a thick film of dust. Lisa’s experiments had always been terrifying to me, but at the same time they brought an amount excitement to my life I’d missed being away at college. The explosions or the freakish things she’d do to us without their knowing. It was scary, but in a funny way.
I made my way back down the hall towards the bathroom when I stopped at Luna and Luan’s room. My mouth went dry and my palms became moist as I opened the door seeing their bunk bed. My mind filled with dueling images. The days when I’d help Luan with her routines alongside the tender moment’s we’d shared in her bed; the taste of metal as we kissed. I shuddered at the thought though I wasn’t sure if it was pleasure or regret, probably both. Then there was the time I’d stayed up all night helping Luna learn a rather difficult piece of music, and then the time we’d made love to that very same piece of music.
I turned away from the door coming face to face with Lori and Leni’s door. I wanted to just ignore this feeling of nostalgia and stop this tour down memory lane, but I’d promised myself that I’d no longer run from my mistake I’d face it, so taking a deep breath I opened the door. “It’s just a room dummy.” I thought to myself as I gave myself over to the memories I’d shared with my two eldest sisters. I remembered Lori and I as kids the two of us racing each other on their bikes. Lori falling off her bike and me kissing her scraped knee better. The memory then shifted to Lori and I lying down on the couch after everyone else had gone to bed. I can’t remember what we’d been watching all I knew was that the feeling of Lori lying on top of me was perfect.
I bit my lip as I felt tears brimming at my eye, but I persisted letting Leni flow through my head like water in a river. Leni was sitting down on the carpet her big blue eyes watery with unshed tears as she clutched her finger. I kneeled down to her side easing her finger open seeing a droplet of blood on her fingertip. It looked like she’d pricked herself while sewing again. All of Leni’s fingers had at least one bandage on them. I kissed her finger then cradled it against my chest. “Pain, pain go away.” I chanted to her as she smiled in relief hugging me tightly. The scenery changed one final time to Leni sitting on her bed as I buried my head between her legs as she called out my name. I stumbled back from the room and into the bathroom shutting the door behind me as I panted wiping away the sweat forming on my brow as I hurriedly turned on the shower not even waiting for it to warm up as I stripped down and hopped in, the warming water clearing my mind. My body went to autopilot washing him as my mind went through my feelings. On the one hand I love my sisters still do even after everything that’s happened and I wanted to be with them, but still everything was so broken in my life it was hard to believe that the best thing in my life right now was what would undoubtedly destroy it.
“I love all my sisters and I want them to be happy, but I know they’ll never be happy with me like this, and even if I did kill myself that wouldn’t help them either. It would just make things worse.” I spoke aloud in the shower. This brought a smile to my face. I remember how annoyed Lori would get when I’d talk to myself. I sighed every thought in my head lead back to my sisters. I don’t know if that’s wrong or right, but it makes me feel better. I shivered looking up realizing the water had run cold telling me I had been in there too long.
I turned off the water and stepped out looking at myself in the mirror. I looked myself over and shook my head at the sunken cheeks and hollow eyes. I looked dead already. “Sorry mom and dad. I’m no good to anyone like this. I need to do what’s best for my sisters not what makes me feel better. The only real way I can make up for what’s happened is to take responsibility. No more mopping around. Time to be the man my sisters need me to be, and to at least pretend to be the man you thought I could be.” I said as I rushed out of the bathroom and went downstairs to my parent’s bedroom. I hadn’t been in here since that night three years ago, but there was no time for doubt. I went into my parents’ bathroom finding my dad’s back up straight razor and began shaving.
Albert was sitting in the living room watching a rerun of Perry Mason. “You tell him Perry you’ve got that ol’ codger dead to rights!” He shouted slapping the armrest of the couch as Myrtle walked in. “Oh Albert you’ve seen this episode at least a dozen times already.” She said sitting down with two glasses of lemonade handing one to Albert. “I know Myrtle sweetheart, and it gets better every-!” At that moment there was a knock at the door. “Oh who could that be? Can’t an old man watch his reruns in peace?” Said Albert getting off the couch and going to the door.
“We don’t want any!” He shouted as he opening the door and coming face to face with Lincoln. Albert stopped in his tracks. Lincoln hadn’t visited here since he dropped the younger girls off, and well Albert was shocked at how much Lincoln looked like him at that age. Lincoln was clean shaven and his longer hair properly combed back from his face he hadn’t seen him this good since his graduation. “Sorry Pop-pop I can come back if now’s not-.” Albert snatched Lincoln into a bone crushing hug. “I’m so glad to see you son.” He said wiping a tear from his eye. I smiled at the old man before me. At one point I had thought about joining the navy like my grandfather, but I didn’t want to be away from my girls for that long. “You’re here to see the girls’ right?” He asked and the pleading note in his voice shredded my heart. I nodded dumbly not trusting myself to speak.
Pop-pop smiled as he pulled me inside. “Girls come in we’ve got a visitor!” Pop-pop shouted as I took a deep breath hearing footsteps. The first to enter was Lily obviously having run the whole way. Lily and I locked eyes and I felt my heart stop. I was expecting rage for her to throw something at me or yell instead she vaulted into my arms like she was diving into a swimming pool. “Linky you’re back I missed you!” She shouted in my ear nearly bursting my eardrum, but all I could do is squeeze her to my chest as I felt my eyes swell up with unshed tears. Soon they were joined by Lynn, Lisa, Lana, Lola, and Lucy via popping up behind Pop-pop and scaring everyone. “Well on that note I’m going to take my heart medication.” Pop-pop said clutching his chest as he went to the room he shared with Myrtle who soon followed leaving the siblings alone.
Lincoln cleared his throat as he set Lily down. “Look guys I’m sorry about all of thi-.” Lincoln was cut off by a punch to the gut by Lynn whose face was red with anger. “You jerk you think you can just apologize come back all of a sudden like nothing’s happened. You kicked us out of our own home for three years!” Lincoln coughed he’d deserved that. “I know Lynn and I’m sorry I just needed time.” “Time, you needed TIME!? What about what we needed hunh!?” Lola shouted her face mirroring Lynn’s with tears leaking down her face. “We needed our brother to take care of us like mom and dad said you would, but you just left us.”
Lana consoled her teary sister as Lisa spoke. “My elder siblings are correct Lincoln. You are the head of our household, but instead of doing you duty you ran from it and abandoned us while you wallowed in sorrow and self-pity hardly the look of a proper role model. Lincoln nodded as he got to his knees. He was about to agree with his sisters. What he’d done was wrong and selfish and he deserved all their anger and resentment, but he had to apologize at least. “That’s not nice you guys Lincoln said he was sorry!” All eyes turned to Lily. “I know Lincoln hasn’t been around for a while, but he’s here now. Mom always said you have to forgive someone if they say they’re sorry, and Lincoln’s trying to.”
Lincoln shook his head as he stood up rubbing Lily’s head. “It’s alright Lily I did something really bad and it’s going to take something more than sorry to make up for three years. I just wanted you guys to know I’m trying to fix things now and I love all of you I never stopped loving any of you I swear I didn’t.” He said heading for the door. “Wait does this mean we can come back Linky?” Lily asked grabbing hold of his pant leg. Lincoln scratched the back of his head. “Not yet Lilybug, but I promise you, all of you that it you will soon. I just have to get my head on straight so that when you do come back things will be better.”
Lynn, Lucy, Lola, Lana, and Lisa all looked at their older brother doubtfully not sure whether to believe him or not. “I know that my words garbage right now, but just wait and see ok. Actions speak louder than words.” He said kissing Lily on the forehead before I left hopping in the car that my dad had bought me for college. I had a couple more stops to make today and they would each be harder than the last. I fished my phone out of my pocket and dialed Clyde’s number. “Hello Lincoln is everything alright?” I smirked at Clyde’s good natured response. “Not yet Clyde, but I think it will be. You think I can get a session in with you later today?” I asked feeling a bit weird asking to talk to my friend about my issues. “Let me check my schedule. Yes I can squeeze you in before my appointment with nothing at 3 and my other appointment at 4 with nobody.” We both laughed at Clyde’s joke before hanging.
I stopped at red light and pulled up my food truck app typing in Lynntastic Voyage.
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