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White Noise
By : RWBYRemnants
Category: +M through R > RWBY
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WARNING: Depressing talk.

=Chapter 33
The flight wasn’t terribly long, and Penny and Ruby were both ready to pick her up straight from the airport. Ruby had even taken the liberty of making a sign up so it was easier for Weiss to spot her at the lobby, as ridiculous as it seemed for her to do. Of course, there was the inevitable few people that recognized her and wanted a signature, but thankfully no paparazzi.
A quick drive back to the dorms later, Penny had just started to pull into the parking lot, having only made simple small talk until they got back home. Both Ruby and Weiss seemed to think that best. But now that they were here, Penny tried to start for them.
"We really are sorry, Weiss. She made Ruby promise not to tell you anything other than her being safe. I know it doesn't help, but please don't think badly of us."
“It’ s alright, ” Weiss said in a weary voice, finding it within her to spare the girl a smile. All of her crying and thinking had been done during her hours on the airplane, leaving her more drained than anything else. “ I, um … I understand the situation a little better now … thanks to my former sister. Not yours or Ruby ’ s fault. ”
"I still feel awful…" Ruby admitted, only just unbuckling her belt and opening the car door. They may have been talking, but all the while, Ruby was quiet, and continually looked towards the ground. She clearly felt guilty about the whole ordeal. "I feel bad for breaking Yang's promise, too! But… you needed to know. I can't keep something that big to myself."
Once out of the car, Penny went to get the luggage from the trunk while Weiss drew Ruby into her second hug since landing and gripped her tightly. In a quiet whisper, she said, "I'm sorry… I'm sorry you have to deal with my crazy family, I d-didn't want this to happen to Yang…"
"No… nononono, Weiss. This isn't your fault at all, d-don't…" But as she noticed tears forming in Weiss's eyes once again, she just hugged her back, nuzzling against her neck. Weiss needed someone to be close to her just as much as Ruby did. Sure, she had Penny, but the more the better. "Don't cry… Please, you had no idea any of this was happening. None of us did. Yang never told me how much was going on in her brain until today. I don’t even think Blake knew."
"Yeah, I know that… I know. God, I'm so sorry for what Winter did; she has no excuses. None. Interfering with our lives that way…" With one more good squeeze, she stepped back and shook herself. "Anyway, we can mope and be gross in your dorm. No sense standing around out here in the parking lot like this."
"Good point. And, uh… I'm sorry in advance if any of the girls ask you for an autograph. Some of them have been kinda, uh… pushy toward me once learning I knew you…"
Following her redheaded girlfriend, the two began to make their way inside. Thankfully, it seemed like the other students were out, only the odd one or two sat in the common room with a coffee, which made it easy enough to slip by and head to their room on the middle floor. As soon as they got there, it became clear Ruby had already tidied up, clearing the spare bed they normally used as both table and sofa back to a spare bed for Weiss again, and all the fast food boxes had been put in the trash can – or at least near it. Typical student living, but it was Weiss's temporary home.
Normally, Weiss might have commented on the dubious tidiness or offered to help, but she was too emotionally drained; all she could do was flop down on Ruby's bed. She hadn't even picked it intentionally, only headed straight to the nearest one.
"Ugh… I can't believe this is my life right now…"
"U-Um…" Ruby mumbled, looking back and forth between Weiss on her bed, and toward Penny. Of course they knew she hadn't realized, so neither said anything. All Penny did was bite her lip nervously while her blushing girlfriend slowly approached, and sat down by her side. And then remembered what Yang would do; joke.
"Come on, our room's not that bad is it?"
Another long groan. "Your room is fine. The rest of my life isn't." Then she rolled onto her side and looked up at Ruby. "So um, about Yang. I… I don't know if I really want to know this, but… how did she… try to…?"
The jokey attitude had completely disappeared, and she breathed out sadly. These were the awful questions she knew she'd have to answer, not that it made it any easier. "I didn't ask, but Yang mentioned Blake tackling her off a stool, so I assume…" She didn't say the word, only brought her hand up toward her own neck, gesturing as though she was going to grab it.
"Oh…" Weiss squeezed her eyes shut, forcing tears out and down onto Ruby's pillow. "I… I'm so stupid, why didn't I realize? Here I am, walking around in a stupid daze like I’m the only one who… and there's Yang, she's in pain because of something my sister did, and I never put it together…" Sniffling, she breathed, "I'm not worthy of her. So stupid."
"You can't blame yourself, Weiss." Thankfully, Penny was a lot calmer than Ruby was, having acted as her rock for the whole day since she got the terrible news. At least she could speak up a little more than she could right now. "What your sister did… It's not fair, not one bit. But you are not her. That's not your fault. You'd have never let any of this happen if you knew."
"She's right," Ruby managed to force out, sniffing herself as she held back the tears that were forming. She'd done more than enough crying today. "Penny's completely right. How could you have known she'd try this? I'd never suspect any of my own family; even if I had another sister like Winter, I'd have never thought someone that close to me could be so mean."
Nodding weakly, Weiss let out a long, would-be cleansing breath. But what she said was, "I didn't… didn't love Yang enough. Or obviously enough, maybe. If I had just shown her a little more clearly how I felt, maybe Winter wouldn't have been able to scare her into running away…"
For a full minute, they all sat in silence. Then Ruby whispered, "Penny, can you make me and Weiss some hot cocoa? And, maybe pester Pyrrha into giving me my DVDs back?" Her girlfriend nodded, giving them both a quick smile when she grabbed the two empty mugs sat by the open laptop on the desk, quickly vacating the room and shutting the door behind her.
Once she was gone, Ruby pulled out her phone again, quickly unlocking it, clear in Weiss's view. The pop star only stared at what Ruby was doing for a few seconds. Then she finally whispered, "Do you want me to give you some privacy?" Clearly, she assumed Ruby was going to make a call.
"Nope." The girl dialed her voicemail, switching the phone to speaker so the both of them could hear the monotonous voice of the menu. "But I can give you the privacy if you need it. Just… hit One to play."
"What?" Her brow furrowed as she looked at the phone, then up at Ruby again. She didn't bother to ask her to leave; only reached up, hesitated, then pressed her index finger against the screen.
"First message. Received earlier today."
"Hey, Rubes… It's me." Once the message began to play, it was obvious who the voice was. It was her Yang's. Undeniably Yang's.
"Oh…" Weiss's voice grew tear-soaked within mere seconds of hearing the one on the phone, and she sat up, clutching the other girl's phone as if it were suddenly made of gold.
"I'll go help Penny." Ruby barely whispered, quickly getting up and exiting the room, shutting the door quietly behind her. Leaving behind the voice of her sister on the phone, one which Weiss couldn't even respond to. But she needed to hear it. Even if the very first bit appeared to be Yang herself sobbing, and speaking in a clearly drunken slur.
"I screwed up, Ruby. I screwed up big time. I thought I could do all this myself, that I could be happy and that she could be happy and it would all work out after a while like Winter said… But it's not. I can't sleep, I c-can't eat… I'm a mess. A complete mess."
Tears had already begun flowing from Weiss's eyes again by this point. Never before had she heard Yang in so much pain, so much unlike herself. She'd never even heard her drunk on more than one occasion. What had this unfortunate situation transformed her ex-girlfriend into?
"I can't even smile anymore, or laugh. I can't even make a pun, a fucking pun. How d-dumb is that?" The voice seemed to chuckle very slightly. Even if it didn't last long at all. The sorrowful monologue continued. "You're probably thinking I shouldn't have listened, right? T-that I shoulda just come home, punched Winter in the face and said a great big 'Fuck You' to her stupid face… I keep wondering that, too. Like, what would have happened if I didn't listen to her, if I'd just have let her put those photos out…"
Weiss leaned closer, hanging on every word. This had been something she thought a lot about during her flight; why did she give in? Let Winter control their lives this way? It seemed so unlike the bodyguard she had come to know and cherish …
"I couldn't risk it. I couldn't risk the media making stories. Not of me, I don't give a shit about me. But about Weiss… doesn’t take some fancy degree to know what stories like that can do to a star, how cruel the media can be. I remember we learned about Amy Winehouse in my media class, how they trashed her like they wanted her to die. Then where does she end up? Exactly." There was another deep breath and a sniff. Yang was well and truly broken on the other side, apart from the odd hiccup, which re-affirmed she was drunk as well. But perhaps, for the sake of telling the truth, she needed to be. "I CAN'T let that happen to her, Ruby. I can't even risk it… I…"
Yet another deep breath, and then the sentence Weiss had been waiting so long to hear. She just wished it was under better circumstances.
"I love her, Ruby. I love her, a-and now I'll never get to tell her. I should have told her when I had the chance, told her how much she meant to me, that I can't live without her… but I was too fucking SCARED to say it. And now it's too late. ”
"No, it's not!" Weiss found herself whispering to the phone uselessly, tears running down her cheeks and onto its touchscreen. But she also couldn't help but feel like maybe she had been the worst kind of girlfriend for the special type of girl Yang was: one in the public eye. Given her gender status, there was nothing more dangerous to her than that. She had been the one taking too many chances, she had ignored the dangers. Not Yang.
"It's way too late… I've been away for so long, I've turned into such a mess, putting Weiss through all my shit, and now Blake… everybody has every reason to hate me now. I really am a circus freak, everything Winter said was right…" But a few more sniffs later, she managed to power herself to keep going. "You have to be strong, okay? Stronger than I was. And I don't want you to be upset, or beat yourself up, because I don't… I don't deserve to keep being here anymore; you do. You need to be the amazing daughter that Dad deserves, okay? Study hard, achieve your dreams, all that shit. Even look after Zwei… Tell Dad I love him. And… and tell Weiss, I'm so, so sorry."
"End of message. To delete, press seven. To save…"
Why did this hurt her so much more than Yang leaving in the first place? Finding out that she did still love her, loved her so much to sacrifice their happiness together for a perceived need to protect her… it was too much for her heart, and she let the phone fall to the floor as she convulsed, curling into a ball on the bed and pressing her hands to her face.
Ruined. Her entire life had been ruined by the actions of her sister, and by her own inability to reassure Yang in the correct ways that she wasn't a danger, she wasn't a mere obstacle to her future. How could she have been so stupid, so careless?
Such a mood was interrupted when the phone vibrated once more. A text message had come through. One from Yang herself to Ruby.
Srry I scared u. Jst got back to Blake's. I'm safe n I mean that honestly this time x oxo
And even though there was another wave of relief, one so similar to the one she had felt when Ruby first told her she was okay, it couldn't quite erase Weiss's own growing guilt that the entire situation came about in the first place. That she had let Yang go… that she hadn't figured out she was at Blake's, hadn't gone after her physically. Been too confused and hurt to try anything besides calling her over and over.
Maybe she really didn't deserve her. As much as she had been tempted to think Yang failed her so many times, this only showed her it was clearly the other way around. She was such a pitiful excuse for a girlfriend that she had let Yang slip through her fingers, let her fade away and nearly die. And that was the worst thing she had ever done, however inadvertently.
But then another vibration, yet another message. Actually, R u free? Not for skype, jst voice call?
This was an opportunity that might not repeat itself. Her one chance to actually tell Yang she was sorry; after all, there was no guarantee if she went to Chicago that Yang would want to see her. She only hesitated for a second out of guilt for deceiving Yang before she texted back: Yea I am
Not even a minute later, the phone began to ring. Typical of Ruby, it was one of Weiss's songs playing for a short moment. But the instant it was answered by Weiss, there was a moment of silence. Before the clear voice of Yang spoke again. "Hey, li’l flower. Sorry about all this, I just… I don’t know."
"Don't hang up," Weiss breathed desperately. "Please, can you just… just listen for a minute?" There was no answer from Yang. Of course not; she had ruined her life so much that she had nothing to say to her. Therefore, she pressed on.
"Yang, I'm sorry. I had no idea Winter did any of that, that she went behind my back and… but that's not an excuse. I should have known something happened, should have figured it out instead of just… just whining into your voicemail a billion times. God, I feel so stupid…" She took a breath, pushing up from the bed to pace back and forth. All the while throughout, there was no voice from the other side. It was only the odd shaky breath outwards that was the indicator that Yang was on the other line. "But you're probably better off without me. I mean, if I wasn't smart enough to figure this out, and we've only been dating for a few months… what happens a year from now? Five, ten? What if you need even more and I’m even less ready? You need somebody who's smarter than that, who won't… drag you into the tabloids, even if it's just on accident. Somebody who isn't me, clearly."
A few seconds after Weiss had stopped, she sniffled and whispered, "Y-You heard…"
"Yang?" But she cut herself off from hoping Yang would say more. This wasn't right. "Sorry for, um, picking up Ruby's phone, but she's honestly out of the room right now. That was… I'm sorry for so many things." Her voice grew tight. "But I don't agree with what Winter said; I want to make that completely clear, okay?! She can go sit on a rusty garden rake for all I care! I think you're… you're a beautiful, perfect, incredible woman! And I always will!"
There was a sudden intake of breath from the other side, as though Yang were beginning to cry as well. The majority of the call between them was silence, just listening to the other with only the odd one or two words. Especially from Yang, anyway.
"I'm s-sorry…" She was barely holding herself together. "S-sorry if I-I… scared you…"
"You did," Weiss admitted. "Twice now, I… I don't know what I would do if you… had really…" Now she was crying again, though she had been doing so well up until that point. "You can't do that! I don't care if you hate me for making you promise not to try again – go ahead! Hate me, but hate me because you made the promise! Please?!"
And the crying had gotten worse. Now she was sobbing rather loudly the other end, shakily breathing in and out all through the call. It wasn't what Weiss wanted or intended of course, but she couldn't hold it in anymore. Everything was just too much after hearing her voice again since so long had passed.
"I'm sorry… I'm so sorry that I failed you, twice now, I… but you have to promise. Right now, promise me!"
"I should be apologizing," Yang stopped her, attempting yet again to try and keep herself from sobbing ridiculously loudly, taking a deep breath in, and then releasing. "So I can't promise exactly that… I w-wish I could. But I promise, I'll work to make myself how I was again. And I’ll really try this time, I’ll bust my ass. Swear to God, I’m… I’m not giving up."
Another broken sob came from Weiss's throat. "No… no, you can't try it again – ever! Please?!" No response, other than sobs. "Damn it… I can't even do this, I can't do anything, I'm such a…" But she couldn't even finish that sentence. She wasn't sure what she was.
"I want you to be happy." That was all Yang could say. Even as she heard Weiss sobbing and shakily breathing, barely keeping it together, she continued, "But you won't be with me. Obviously. I’m just a mess right now, and you deserve better; I was supposed to protect you, and that's impossible for someone like me to do… when I can’t even save myself from myself."
"I… I don't agree, but… but I don't really have any right to say anything." Pressing her hand into her face, she tried to think of what else she could say. There were three words she wanted to, but she didn't have any right to those anymore, either. "How did everything go this badly, this suddenly? Like… what happened to us? Everything was perfect, and now…"
Instead of answering directly, she changed the subject. Perhaps she had given up trying to explain anymore after all. Or perhaps… Perhaps she wanted to keep Weiss in her life, talk to her as a friend. Even if they both didn't want to be distanced. "How come you're at Ruby's? Like, why would you be all the way out there?"
"Well… Ruby wanted to explain to me in person. What happened, and… I mean, it's no big deal." Her fingertips ran through her fringe as she stared at a spot on the floor, leaning up against one of their desks. "You… ended up at Blake's, huh?"
Sniffing, Yang was at least able to hold herself together now. Better than she was anyway. "Been here for about two months. I thought… thought it would keep Winter off my back."
"She didn't say she was still trying to mess up your life further, so I guess it worked. I'm… I won't make excuses for her. She crossed the line in a big way, with both of us."
"I think I left her a voice mail…" That sounded very uncertain. "I can't remember… I was pretty… drunk, high, distraught. I've been… Well, I am , a mess."
"High?" Then Weiss forced herself to back down from that particular topic; she didn't exactly approve, but it wasn't currently any of her business. "Well… What's important now is that you get better, right? Just… you're still my b-best…"
Yang had a feeling she knew where that was going. And she stopped it before it did. It was one thing to know, but another to hear it fall from her mouth. She wasn't ready for that yet.
"I will, eventually. G-Good luck next week at Beach Fest… I'll watch it on TV, okay?"
"Thanks!" she half-laughed, half-sobbed. "I'll dedicate a song to you, if… if that's okay with you."
"Why wouldn't it be?" She tried to laugh herself, by now sounding as though she had perked up a little bit more, even though there was occasional sob and sniff in between. There was so much she wanted to say, so much more she wanted to confess. But it seemed she wasn't brave enough to do that anymore. "I should let you get going."
Again, the weak laughter. "And where the hell am I going?" But once the laughs faded, she whispered, "It was… really good to hear your voice, Yang. Take care of yourself for me."
"Yeah… Yeah, you too. I lo-" But instantly she cut herself off, and made out that she was clearing her throat instead. "L-Later."
"Later."
And the instant they hung up, Weiss began weeping. Partly out of pain, and a regret for what they lost… but partly from relief. Now she had something else: hope. That had been the word Yang was about to slip into the conversation. It wasn't certain, and she didn't assume it meant they would ever get back together… but at the very least, Yang was relatively alright and still cared about her. That was better than she was doing before the call.
After a few more minutes, finally Ruby and Penny reappeared into the room again. Ruby headed in first, peeking her head around the door to check on her. Seeing she was just staring at the floor, Ruby held a steaming mug out toward Weiss.
"We added some cream and marshmallows, Pyrrha let us have some when we got the DVDs. Lemme know if it's too hot."
Taking a long sip, the pop star smiled gratefully up at her friend and friend's roommate. "It's perfect. You guys…" She sighed, the smile slipping down a notch. "God, should I feel bad? I'd rather be here with you guys right now than with Neon, and that seems wrong somehow… it’s like… I don’t know. I really don’t know what’s going on with me anymore. "
"Oh, shit! I completely forgot!" Ruby instantly closed her eyes tightly, sitting by Penny's side with her own drink as she took a sip of her own drink. "How is she? Is she still, um… performing with you in a couple of weeks?"
"Yeah, yeah she is. Oh! That's right, I have…"
Jumping up from the bed, Weiss did get best not to spill any of her cocoa as she went to her suitcase and unzipped it quickly. "I was going to mail you a little surprise, but… well as long as I'm here, I can give it to you in person."
"Huh?" Ruby looked toward what she was doing, but seeing the glimmer of shine on two strips of paper gave away instantly what it was. And Ruby's eyes went to the size of dinner plates. She had to struggle not to suddenly drop her own drink or end up screaming. "Tickets?! You got us both tickets to Beach Fest?!"
"Of course I did," Weiss sighed with a smile — one markedly less morose than her others of the day. "Backstage passes! I want you and whoever you pick…" There, she paused to glance pointedly at the placidly waiting face of Penny. "To really enjoy yourselves, alright? It… will be nice to have a friendly face in the crowd, and not just people who see stars when they look in my direction."
Penny laughed. "Well, Ruby still does at times, as much as she hates to admit it."
"Shut uuuuup." Ruby insisted, pulling the hood of her hoodie back over her head to try and hide her slight embarrassment over Penny's words.
Not that it did much good. After taking a sip of her cocoa and smirking at her girlfriend however, she looked over to Weiss again and asked, "Would you like us to stand in a certain place so you can see us while you perform? I think that'd be nice for you."
"Oh, I'm sure I'll see you wherever…" Then she shrugged one shoulder once she had thought it over. "Off to stage right is usually where the people who can come backstage end up. If you're not there, I'll look for you in the front row where your seats are. Really, as long as you enjoy the show, that's all I wanted."
"They're front row, holy shiiiiit!!! " Ruby had grabbed one of them to get a better look at, holding it quite close to her face so she could read the smaller print at the bottom. It included all the details of the event, and their backstage coverage, and terms and conditions.
Which was something Penny was interested in particularly. For one moment she was lost wandering her own trail of thought – tapping her chin thoughtfully. The next, she asked, "For the backstage part… Do we need anything that lists names? Like, say if I fall ill and can't go, could Ruby take someone else and they can get backstage fine?"
"No, just those tickets. Ruby will have to give her name to get you backstage, of course; they're in her name. Security measure, you understand." But her pleased smile was entirely unconcerned about such minor details; she had succeeded in inviting her friends to the show. Things were finally beginning to look up.
"And I'm probably dragging you there even if you are ill, anyway," Ruby insisted, finally taking a sip of her own cocoa now that she wasn't as distracted as she was, but all the time she was grinning in glee. She barely even noticed her own girlfriend was sat perplexed in thought, staring out blankly. But she would learn why, in just a few short hours.

It didn't take too long before Weiss called it a night, only managing to get through a few episodes of Doctor Who on Netflix before she retired back to Ruby's bed, snuggling into the sheets, headphones in to block out the noise of rowdy and randy students as Ruby recommended, completely asleep.
And her temporary roommates would have been as well, if they weren't occupied with different things. As usual, Ruby was scrolling through Tumblr for posts to add to her blog, occasionally showing Penny a funny meme or two; while her redheaded girlfriend however was still staring blankly at her phone. Still thinking.
Until at last… "Hey, Ruby?"
"Yeah?" Ruby asked, still not having looked up from her laptop screen.
A quick glance to make sure that Weiss was certainly asleep later, she shuffled up to Ruby that bit extra, leaning a head on her shoulder. And then covering her mouth, she attempted to cough, even though it was the most fake sounding one ever.
"Oh, oh dear, I seem to be feeling ill. Looks like you'll have to take someone else to the Beach Fest with you."
"Cut that out," Ruby snorted, navigating a page on her browser with the greatest of ease. "You know there's nobody I wanna go with besides you. Well, maybe Dad, but he wouldn't have any fun; all the musicians are under the age of thirty."
"Oh, really? Poop… it's a shame you don't have someone who would absolutely love to go. Like, I don't know, a sister, or something." Penny continued, and then slowly tilted her head to watch for Ruby's reaction, no matter how slow it came.
"But you don't have a sister! Or… wait." Finally looking away from her screen, she rolled over to look at Penny, a delighted expression in her silvery eyes. "Are you plotting what I think you're plotting? Because if you are, then… then I think I might want in on it!"
"Sshhhh!!!" Penny pressed a finger to her lips, quickly looking toward Weiss again to make sure she didn't stir. Not even a peep, excellent. Diverting her attention back to Ruby again, she was grinning giddily. "Think about it; you're in the front row, and Weiss is gonna be looking for you. If you and Yang are standing together, she'll see you both! And then they can head backstage, talk things out in person, and then they'll be back together!"
"Yessss," Ruby whispered in a hushed voice. "Oh my god, it's so PERFECT! This is why we're bee-eff-eff, you know!" Sitting up cross-legged again, she rubbed her face. "Though the real trick is getting Yang to come down there… I mean, she's halfway across the country from here, and in a funky mood…"
"Which is why I thought we should probably start working on convincing her. Do you have the friend she's staying with's number?"
Nodding, Ruby offered her phone, unlocking it and handing it over for Penny to peruse the contacts. "Her name's Blake."
"Blake… Blake… Blake!" Finding the number in there with ease, she went into the messaging application, she quickly typed the following message.
We think we have a way to deal with Yang's funky mood, or even fix her relationship with Weiss! Do you think you can get Yang to come to the Cali Beach Fest for Friday? Penny'll pay for any travel costs with her allowance, of course <3
And of course, Ruby had been watching over her shoulder as she typed up the message, her smile slowly growing the entire time. She had never really done anything this sneaky before… and the fact that it was for such a worthy cause made her even more wickedly gleeful.
“Heh heh hehhhh… this is gonna be AWESOME!”
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White Noise