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No Particular Reference
By : LeavesofMyself
Category: Transformers > G1
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Disclaimer: See full disclaimer in Chapter 1
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LeavesofMyself: This is sort of a follow up to Chapter 1. Enjoy!
Chapter Warning: Angst, Light Swearing (again, like one word), Dark Theme
Chapter Rating: T

~*~ Life dies inside a person when there are no others willing to be-friend him.
He thus gets filled with emptiness and a non-existent sense of self-worth. –Mark R. J. Lavoie ~*~
He barely left his chamber anymore; he couldn't bring himself to do so. He knew there wasn't a point to, no reason for him to venture further into the obsolete halls. They had made it so painstakingly clear during his forced attendance to what had been the revelation of his measly existence he so desperately tried to ignore. He could be blind no longer. None desired to be around him, to even gaze upon his frame. Therefore, he wouldn't burden them with doing so.
After his revelation, he tried, so foolishly tried to be-friend others, to make them see him, to become somebody. He had, like so many things in his worthless existence, failed. His subtle words, meek actions, and submissive gestures were only greeted by the fierceness of a seething hatred from all. He was not welcomed among any 'cliques'. He had even changed his ways so unconditionally to the point where not even he, himself, could recognize what he had been or who he was anymore. It didn't work. In truth, it only seemed to make the situation in which he found himself in worse than what it had been, for the others quickly grew suspicious, weary even. They had confronted Prime and Megatron about it. He was immediately investigated upon; forced to undergo a period of close observation. He stopped trying after that.
So he now sat in his apathetic chamber, the lightening dimmed to that of the faintest glow. His dulled, almost lethargic, optics staring unseeingly at the opposite, though empty, wall of his chamber, his frame deflated with listlessness. His internal alarms screamed for attention, red signals flaring across his vision warning of imminent stasis lock if he did not immediately refuel. Slowly, he moved away from the berth and towards the door, towards his cruel and unforgiving peers, towards his miserable life… He opened his chamber door and stepped out into the hall. Without a conscious thought, he forced himself to move in the direction of the rec. room. He only wanted to silence the blaring alarms. Nothing more.
He had made it half way when he saw a mech approach him from the opposite direction. It took him but a moment for his clouded processor to place a face with a name. Thundercracker. His dead spark twisted in silent agony as the distance between himself and the blue seeker grew non-existent.
Notice me.
It was all he needed. A tilt of the helm. A glance. A glare. Something. Anything. He just needed reassurance that someone, anyone still knew he functioned. Still took the effort to notice such worthless slag.
Please. Notice me.
They passed one another in the dead of silence. He could have collapsed in pure anguish as his blue wing mate waltzed by, never once noticing the desperate look on the other's face. Thundercracker didn't even bother to greet him. He didn't even care. Didn't try to…. Didn't want to.
He was invisible.
He entered the rec. room silently, much like a shadow. No one looked up as he entered, nor as he claimed a cube of energon. No one cared as he walked forlornly to his lowly table in the still poorly lit corner of the rec. room.
Just as he was about to sip his energon, the door to the rec. room opened and his optics automatically, as if searching for anyone to remind him he was functioning, glanced toward the sound. The cube stopped mere centimeters from his mouth as Skyfire casually strolled into the room, his large white frame relaxed, his optics bright and sharp, his lips tilted upward in a small content smile.
His spark clenched once more.
Look at me.
Skyfire casually greeted some the mechs near him as he grabbed a cube of energon…
See me.
….and began to walk towards a table in the back of the rec. room…..
Please.
…. One which sat no more than a few feet away from the broken ex-Air Commander.
Notice me!
But he never was…. Like always. Skyfire only sat there, his massive frame turned away from him. He was once more ignored, once more overlooked. Once more he was reminded that he was so entirely alone.
He was silently drowning in his own abyss and no one even bothered to notice. But he couldn't blame them. He hated himself as well.

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No Particular Reference	By : LeavesofMyself Category: Transformers > G1 Views: 2509 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: See full disclaimer in Chapter 1

No Particular Reference